The father's thoughts

This is the first time I wrote something about our baby here on the blog, so I pretty much know that it would be the only time also… so I pretty much better write something good…
Since the day I heard that we were having a baby, my mind and my whole world completely changed and YEAH, I do not see things the same way that I used to before, just like when I got married my life changed and so did I, but this time was different, there is a new creature (little monster… which I think I probably won call it like that, since it’s my own child now… lol) that is coming to this world and I’m the one in charge of it, which for me is one of the most amazing experiences in my life, and also the most scary one.
I have been praying and thinking a lot in the past 5 months and probably some of the things that I’m writing would even be a surprise for Erin. So I asked God so many times, to give me wisdom to raise this child, and to help me be the father I never had. A little background about my family history when I was a child I pretty much had two fathers, one that I though it was my dad, until the age of 5, but my mom told me he was not my real dad but some other guy and that I had to keep the secret, so I did for about 12 years, so I had 2 dads which it did not do much good for me since none of them really raised me and showed me what a real father was. They both did drugs and many things.
So I was really afraid that some of that might show up (not the drug part) while I’m a dad, I never had a role model to follow or someone to look up or a good example of what a father is. But since I found out that I was going to be a dad, I commit myself even more to God so that he will make me the father that he wants me to do. And also I started thinking about how was I going to provide for my family, since Erin is will have to stop working sometime, so I was like “I get a second Job”, and look for some and did not find any. So on my way to work while praying to God and asking him what was going to happen and pretty much telling him that I did not know what to do.
And yeah pretty much as usual he answered… first I want to say that God is so awesome and Good everything that He does has a purpose and nothing happens without him knowing what’s really going on. So he pretty much spoke to my heart and told me… what do you mean you don’t have an example of what a real father is? Have you not read my word and all my promises? I have shown you what a father is and pretty much instruct you how to be a good father, I have provide for you and you now here are worrying how to provide for your family when is not really up to you. Seek me first and the rest will be added, and I will show you how good of a father I am; the child is not even yours anyways and I will make sure he will not go hungry.
I was reading and searching things about how to be a godly father and found this on the internet which pretty much showed me my real role as a father, more important that the financial and anything else out there.

As parents, we must examine our nurturing and ourselves. Bringing a child into this world is a great spiritual responsibility that demands much prayer, thought, and provision, both material and spiritual. One of the worse things that I can imagine as a parent is to see one of my children be told on that "Great Day," "Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels" (Matt. 25: 41). However, even worse would be the realization that I contributed to their rejection by failing to responsibly exercise my duties as a parent. "And, ye fathers, provoke not your children to wrath," wrote Paul, "but bring them up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord" (Eph. 6: 4).

Well this is the end of part 1 for now… too much writing I’ll get back at I sometime.

It is a BOY!!!!

Yupi for us! It is a boy. Althoug the doctor only gave him a 90% chance of accuracy...it looks pretty clear to me! The Ovalle name will live on for another generation. His name will be Ricardo Jacob Ovalle. :) We spent the day registering at Target, Sears and JCPennys. :) It was a lot of fun to spend the time together..and Ricardo I think,likes to register (and use the laser gun scanner thingy) :) Jee jee. I am including the only pics we got from today. The Doctro basically sucked..and made our morning a little not fun by beign kinda rude. He was not open to answering our questions or seemed too excited about us being excited! :( But we did not let that let us down. We were stoked it was a boy enough for everyone. So the only pics we have are of his hand, one of his hand near his mouth (he has his daddys lips) and one of his SOON TO BE manlihood :)

A little late

Ok..so I know I never get on here to write anything. And all of you are readign to check up on me...adn there is no new news. Sorry...I told you Jessica made me do this. And with her out of town so much...she has not been around to heckle me til I wrote something. But with her and Casicita getting on me about no updates..I guess I can put down a little something something. News: Tommorrow we find out what we are having. How bizarre...tommorrow I will know girl or boy. And I will nonger be able to call it IT without people yelling at me. No worries..it stil may stay an IT for a while. Many who have babys of thier own know that I call thiers its too. No matter what people say...it is stil an it. An it is just a more general way to refer to it. If you want to be specific...you can say he or she if you like. :)

We got "family" fotos done last month. And yup..they are stil packed up..so that I have not printed any. If it makes you feel better...I have yet to send my own grandma copies of the first ultrasound....and know I have another one coming. Oops..I guess now I will wait for tommorrows..when I can just send it all together.

Also...I was instructed to write about how it sleeps. It does sleep a lot...although like my cat Fatito..when it does sleep..it tends to curl up into an unmoveable mass..so it can be a little pressureable. (did not want to say painful..cause htat is not accurate) All though when it is ready to awaken it unfolds like a flower..spreading al out to reach and poke and smash all other working organisms in my body. That can also be quite the show. Sometimes I feel it strong and sometimes not so much. But..no forgetting that it is there. Ricardo got to feel it for the first time. Casicita tried to feel it the other day at the beach..but it would nto preform forher. Today Ithink it found a home in my chest. I am not 100% of its position...but whatever it did today..it woudl often make me take a double breath. Soon we might be able to see its arms and legs prottruding from the area. :)

We enjoyed a day at the beach this weekend with its tia jessica and casicita. Although..I discovered I can get seasick from holding onto my floaty out in the water. So yeah that ended my trips to the water. Those around me certainly enjoyed and took great delight in me being the BIGGEST at the gathering. I know I know...this comes from being the first to have a kid. Such a pioneer am I! :) Although others think my boobs have yet to catch up. I tried to bed to differ...but unfortunately (for me) and (fortantely for them) I coudl not proof them wrong. You will just have to take my word on it. I wear a Medium sized shirt now...if that is any indication. :) :) :) :)

Ok..I think that is all for now. If I have forgoten anything...I am sure someone will let me know..otheriwse it is prob not too important. No worries..I should have the big news posted tomm. And hopefully...with new pics!!! :)